Monday, September 27, 2010

Race For A Cure



Hailey and me walked in the Susan G. Comen Race for a Cure on Saturday and it was a great morning.  The weather was absolutely perfect, cool and sunny! Everyone could feel the power and happiness...pushing for the greater good. It was a mazing seeing all the survivors with their flowers and lives....

  I had to stop myself numerous times from crying because the emotional toll of the morning was hard to take.  I listened closely to the stories of survival and death...i tried to take it all in and remember.  I thought about my family that were taken too soon.  I thought about how my kids didn't get to spend time with them and how i didn't spend enough time with them.  I thought about how their kids didn't get enough time with them.  I thought about the good times and thougth about the time when we will all see each other again soon.  It was a breezy day and i remembered that we always say the wind are a way for the sdeceased to give us kisses! I pray for a cure! We miss you so much!!

In memory of:

Renee Lasse  -my grandmother
Diane Domeyer -my grandmother
Debbie Domeyer  -my aunt
Chrissy Wegmann  - my aunt


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

God has a plan

It is the plan i have wanted but worried about.  I don't know what the future holds but it looks so much brighter now.  I have decided to leave my future in Gods hands...if i am supposed to be at home or working, God will plan for me.  I am still looking and sending out applications daily.  I still want to work more than anything.  At the same time i am happy with our life as it is...do we really need a bigger house, more stuff....can we just be happy in a small house with three kids and with me at home raising them.  I don't know? What i do know is that it is all in Gods hands and he has a plan for us. 

This little baby shows me what God can do, this baby is so tiny he/she doesn't even have a heartbeat yet.  Somehow my body is already in protection mode and trying to figure out how to make this baby work with our schedule...our constraints...our life.  I am in awe of the power of God.  This has made my day, made my week, made my year, i am happy!

In May, we will be having our third and final child and i am so grateful and blessed for this opportunity! My family is grateful and thrilled.  My daughter is keeping track of the baby's size and comparing it to blades of grass and pieces of food and our son is pointing at his belly and saying baby! My husband is praying for just one but i am saying whatever is thrown our way we are happy with.  I am in awe and so happy, thank-you God, THANK YOU!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

My life

I guess i was a little down yesterday when i posted about my job blues.  Job hunting has times where you feel overwhelmed.  With our economy in the tank it is even harder than ever to get a job at a decent salary and keep it.  Human Resources, my degree, is a hard degree to enter into and being an older woman(30) with children and a short job list i am not always the first pick.  I am trying hard to listen when i am told God has a plan. 

Right now i am trying to focus on getting caught up at home and getting through my days without disaster.  We have been very busy with the start of soccer season and Girl scouts.  When coupled with a calendar full of doctor appointments, photo shoots, and homework for Hailey is has been slightly hectic.  As much as i complain about it i know that is the life of a parent and i do love it!

I have been looking at the kids and staring in awe at how much they have grown lately.  Grant is 2 1/2 and full of life and laughter.  He is ALL boy and full of spunk.  He is extremely independent and mechanically inclined.  Instead of watching cartoons he watches the speed channel.  He loves drag racing, nascar, and all the shows on test driving and fixing cars.  He gets mad if i turn it off.  He won't drink plain soy milk anymore only chocolate soy and loves Capri Sun juice packs.  His favorite food is chinese and eats edamame almost daily as a snack.  He is in size 2 shorts, 2-3T shirts, and size 7-8 shoes depending on the brand.  He is doing well in speech and almost didn't qualify for services.  He is speaking many words and some two-three word phrase but many only family understands.  We know he understands every thing it is just getting him to clearly enounciate the words. 

Hailey is 7 1/2 and so grown up now.  She is at that stage where she wants to be an adult but still throws the tempers like a baby.  It can be difficult but i have been trying hard to discipline accordingly.  She lost another tooth last night and was so excited, i was excited mainly because she still believes in the tooth fairy!!! FYI-our tooth fairy leaves two dollars just in case you wondered.  She had her first orthodontist appointment this month and we decided she has four baby teeth that we need to pull to make room for her permanent teeth.  Then at the end of the year we have another appointment to see if she is ready for early braces..they said by the time she is 9 we will probably need some help because of her massive crowding.  I had extensive work as a kid so i am sure she is in for a treat, yikes!  She just learned how to ride her bike without training wheels, don't laugh.  I know it is a little later than most kids but Hailey is very sensitive and doesn't think she can do many things.  We wanted to wait until she was ready and it was a huge sucess.  She learned in about 5 minutes.  Literaly within an hour she was doing circles and breaking perfectly.  Amazed to say the least...

Then she is in Girl Scouts year three and we are just getting started but i am so proud of all she has learned throughout the past couple of years. I believe they have helped her be more confident and a better person.  Soccer is still iffy, she isn't the most focused girl on the team and we are hard on her for it.  At the same time we understand that she is a kid an dwill have days where she could care less to be there.  She is very good at kicking when she does pay attentiona dn i am hoping in a few weeks when the games start she will really pick up the pace and do awesome. She is wearing mainly size 8/10 pants and the same in shirts and a size 1-2 shoe.  She is sweet and loves art.  She makes beautiful portraits of people and 3-D creations.  I can't wait to be able to get her art lessons and see how she grows and all the can learn from them.

This weekend we are going on our first family trip of the summer...maybe a little late but a trip at that.  Since i was on vacation with the kiddos all of June visiting family we just didn't make time once we were back to go on trips all four of us.  So this weekend we got some free tickets to a St. Louis Cardinals game on Friday night.  Afterwards we are going to stay at the the Hyatt Regency at the Arch which is a bit out of our normal price range but we thought it would be a special treat for us all.  We got a suite and hope to have a little time to swim before or after our festivities.  Then when we wake up Saturday we are hitting the St. Louis Zoo.  Grant has never been and Hailey hasn't been since she was 4 or 5 and it is our favorite zoo within 5-6 hours.  Then we will head home.  Jason has some tatoo work getting done Saturday night, yeah i know Uber important right, so we need to get home for that.  I think it will be a perfect way to start our Labor Day weekend.  We are hoping to finish the weekend off with a small family gathering with my mom, and brother's family but nothing is set in stone.  We also have Holiday world tickets burning a hole in my pocket but i am unsure if we will go this weekend or not...it is all a waiting game.  I will try to post more pics soon...maybe even some of my own kids.  I have been a bad blogger lately, i forgot how nice it feels to write all of your frustrations, hopes, and dreams down.  I like sharing with you ...not that anyone but myself read my blog but maybe that is why i feel so happy.  I can write anything i want and not worry about what anyone thinks!